So, earlier this week, a friend of mine had me take a Meyers Briggs type personality assessment. I did, and what I found out was that I am, indeed, (for lack of a better term) insane. Yep. I am both intuitive and analytical, feeling and logical, and I am neither right brain or left brain -- I am both.
I'm only joking when I say I'm insane (or am I?), but I would say that my methods of dealing with life can often times be described as odd and counterproductive. At least now, I understand why. For example, I am what is commonly known as a pantser. I am not a plotter or a planner when it comes to writing my books, instead, I rely on feeling and intuition to learn my characters and my story. And as I learn, the books somehow get written -- though there have been several instances where I seriously wondered HOW, but that's another post for another day.
Here's where it gets odd, though. I recognize I'm a pantser. I completely get that I write by intuition and feeling, but the analytical side of me can't just let that be. Oh, no. With every book, I create a very pretty Excel spreadsheet that details how many words per day I'm going to write for so many days, until the book is done. This is logical. This makes sense, right?
Sure, except when you can't promise to write so many words each day for so many days since you write by intuition and feeling. Every book I've written is slow, slow, slow in the beginning and then cranks up past the mid-point. Seriously, the first half of almost every book I've written has been months in the making, but the last half? Weeks, probably. No more than a month, for sure.
So what ends up happening early on in a book is I don't meet my schedule, my daily goals, and I end up feeling as if I've failed. Then, that feeling only grows worse with each day that I "fall behind," when truthfully, I'm not falling behind. I'm following my convoluted process, the same process that has worked for every book I've written. But that doesn't stop the feelings of failure, and it doesn't stop me from creating a pretty spreadsheet for the next book.
But it is counterproductive, because feelings of failure can screw with my brain, and hinder my forward motion. I really need to try something different, if I can somehow find a way to feed that analytical/logical side while staying true to the intuitive/feeling side. Good luck, right? If any of you have any ideas, please share...I need all the help I can get.
For those curious, I tested as an INFJ (Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Judging). One of the many descriptions of this personality type can be found at The Personality Page. Check it out, especially if you know me. And if you're interested in finding out your personality type, you can take the test I took at HumanMetrics. If you take the test or already know your personality type, post it in the comments and share if you recognize yourself in the description.
Have a great day!
Tracy Madison is an award-winning author who writes contemporary romances for Harlequin Special Edition. You can learn more about her and her books at her website, www.tracymadison.com.
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